"No one is born hating another person because of the color of his skin, or his background, or his religion. People must learn to hate, and if they can learn to hate, they can be taught to love, for love comes more naturally to the human heart than its opposite."
~ Nelson Mandela
I really start to think to myself why I even bother , reaching out. I start to think why is it so hard to just let things go and move on. Sometimes I think I’m really going crazy cause I’m always trying find a way to make things work but I’m only driving myself insane by doing so. I know that things will never be the same between him and I, and I’m not about to put the blame on him or me. Point blank it just wasn’t meant to be and we are just two people who forgot how to love each other. I don’t have the right words to explain how I feel or what goes through my head anymore. I’m tired of explaining myself and I’m tired of making myself look like I’m crazy. I literally feel like I’m driving myself insane. I have to learn to accept that people’s feelings and there actions isn’t in my control and if someone doesn’t want to love me and be with me, they won’t. I’ve been loving the same person for 3 1/2 years and all I have with me are the memories. At some point things change and two people are meant to fall in love just not meant to be together. My biggest fears all came true and maybe next time I’ll get it right.
I’m still praying for us. We may have a long way to go. But believe me I’m praying for us to be together in the end. My love for you has not changed these past years, and that’s what scary. That you can love someone this much. When you can’t see no other guy, but when I see you, you’re everything.